waiting a liver lover

I kept staring at the ship which was moored at the dock.
kept waiting for a liver lover willing to wade through the ocean with me.

my novel: Prairie Songs (chapter - 10)

Prairie Songs

my novel

chapter Ten

St.Mary cemetery is so quiet these days. John walked slowly between the rows of tombs are seen lined up neatly. He briefly glanced to the left of the tombs of his right, watching the petals of dried flowers scattered on it.

Hhh ... wilted like a lost soul!

In front of a tomb for a moment he stood before dropping to his knees. Wilted bunch of flowers that last week he put the replacement with a new and fresh smelling.

Slowly his fingers touched Karen's name carved on it, trying to recall the patches of her lover's face. Her face was bowed, lost in memories, lost in prayer.

Forgive me, dear ...

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Evening breeze fanned my body that is not dressed. gusts of wind that had a little loosened my chest feels really tight. Today we had a big fight again.

Actually I'm getting tired with all these question. Problems like never ending. I wanted to leave all this, but somehow I was never able to do so. Somehow I feel desperate, but always a sense that I do not know for sure. Feelings of love or just a pity?. I feel like holding an egg that is so easily cracked.

I glanced around through the gloom, the lights flickered in the distance.

One in the morning. I have to go back to the room. I need a shower to be able to write again.

***

in solitude,
from the darkness,
from the bottom of loneliness

"Hi! John. I almost did not known you ".

Without comments John sat up, facing Mike who smiled at him, Mike reached for a cigarette and then threw the box to John.

"You look tidy today, do you have an appointment with someone?"
"Yes. I just got out of the cemetery. "John replied as he rolled a cigarette between his fingers.

Mike still pay attention to John before he said cautiously, "You'd better forget about Karen ....". "Oh, sorry!. Do not misunderstand. I mean ... it’s time to set up your life back, right?. You're like a zombie all!. Do not blame yourself! ", Mike quickly corrected his words when he saw John glared.

"What news?, What about the damned publishers?", John asked as he leaned his head back. Smoke billowing from his mouth, forming small dots and then disappeared.
"They kept asking about you .."
"What did you say to them?"

"Well, I say you still need time. Luckily they can understand. Oh yes, John ... Yesterday I checked out the site fans_mu. Do you remember that young people from Indonesia? "
"Bisma?"
"Yes, Bisma. He sent a message for you. "
"What did he say?"

"Thank you and the joy of meeting time."
"You keep his email address?"
"Looks like you're paying attention to the young man, there is a need you to tell me?", Mike asked probing.

"There's no nothing. I just think maybe we can exchange information. Who knows could be an idea to write. "
"Great!, I'm glad to hear it!. Hopefully your new stuff could be realized! "

John was silent, not quite sure what it could have used his brain to think and write anymore.
"Oh yes ... Why do not you go home later? We eat dinner together. Jane would be happy
How's your wife's? ", Said John. He remembers that Karen and Jane are quite familiar.
"She was fine. Now pregnant with our second child. She often asked about you, John. "
"Give her my best, sometime I'll come."
"Good!. I'm glad to hear it. Time for you to have fun, mate!."

John just stand aside when Mike was so excited. Smoke billowing from his lips, again.

Baby?, Karen had always refused to have children, careers reason of course.

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